he’s going to lose them anyway

Today was the day I had been dreading since my child’s first tooth popped in. A day that maybe should have happened a year and a half ago when I began receiving pamphlet after pamphlet about the importance of good oral hygiene and scheduling the appropriate dentist appointment. No, thank you, I thought. We still have time. Who takes their one year old to the dentist anyway?

I finally bit the bullet a few weeks ago to schedule A’s first dentist appointment because I rationalized stretching it past three years old was maybe a touch too far. I didn’t want those adorable little teeth to fall out for the wrong reasons 🙂

So, the day came. I knew there would be drama. A is sometimes a bit “emotional” (aka a drama queen king) in new situations, especially ones that involve bright lights, lousy tasting toothpaste and sticking foreign instruments in your mouth. Oh, yeah. I was thinking I might rather have a root canal than go through with this one.

The car ride was filled with mixtures of doubt, excitement and loads of questions from A. I knew it was going well when he repeatedly informed me that we were NOT going to the dentist. Bad news, buddy. Now, as soon as we arrived, a miracle occurred… or, my child should be tested for major mood swings… He was thrilled to go inside. He played with the toys, listened to directions, and X-rays? Sure, let’s do those, too. He was a rock star and made it through without a single tear. Amazing… and completely unexpected. So, why do I already feel a knot in my stomach about his appointment in six months??

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Oh, and we may or may not have celebrated no cavities (and no meltdowns) with an ice cream sundae… Oops…

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“say cheese!”

It’s just not vacation until you get to this point…

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So, what spurred on the waterworks? I asked him to please smile for the camera. Totally a legit reason to start sobbing uncontrollably.

I’m not normally one who dresses her boys in coordinating or matching outfit, but we were on vacation, and I thought why not? They will be adorable in their matching red plaid shorts… that you can’t even see in the picture. Lesson learned. Adhere to previous motto of both boys having any clothes on is deemed a success. Makes for much happier pictures.

prescription for mommy

Having a heart baby has turned me into an over-the-top paranoid Mom. At least, that’s how I feel. A simple cold? To the pediatrician. Stopped sleeping for several days? To the pediatrician. Extra fussy? To the pediatrician. Every little thing could techinically be another symptom of his heart, and it terrifies me. Therefore, I should be earning some frequent flyer miles for all these trips to the pedi.

The last visit to the pedi was for excess fussiness and not sleeping at night a short time after E received his new band. And, in my defense, the clinician at the cranial place suggested I contact the pediatrician to make sure it wasn’t an ear infection. I doubt the pedi believed me when I relayed that bit to him since E was becoming a regular patient. Anyway, after getting checked out and all clear, he suggested a prescription for ME.

Ear plugs and a glass of wine.

I think I can handle that one.

war wounds

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In the last hour, I have been peed on, bitten, pinched, spit up on, rammed into with a ride on toy… multiple times, sneezed on, and screamed at by two little ones with very effective vocal chords. Tonight sets a new record. I better get a lot of hugs and kisses at bedtime… if we ever make it there. #stilllovemykids

meet A

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My first born, or parenting test dummy, however you want to look at it. A was my first look at what love at first sight truly means. He turned our world upside down for the better.

Now, as a toddler, I am amazed every day by him. Sure, I want to rip my hair out almost constantly, and I totally blame him for all my gray hairs, but that feeling can change in an instant with his hilarious comments, wacky dance movies or sweet gestures out of nowhere. Nothing can make you feel prettier than when your toddler looks at you with those big beautiful eyes and says, “You’re pretty, Momma. So pretty” or “Love you, Momma.” Cue heart melting.

He is my “spirited” child, full of energy and on the move. He talks a million miles a minute, and has the kindest heart. He is my first baby love and my sweetest snuggle bug.

I’m a Mom.

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I’m a mom. I’m a wife. I’m a Believer. I’m a writer. I’m a super hero. I’m a kisser of boo boo’s. I’m a burner of dinners. I’m a dreamer. I’m a lover of wine. I’m a goof. I’m a multi-tasker. I’m a wannabe photographer. I’m an open ear. I’m a snuggler. I am perfectly imperfect but perfectly in love with my boys. I’m a mess. Our life is a mess. But, what a beautiful mess it is.

Three years ago, we welcomed our first child into the world, and I began blogging “a beautiful mess” as a first time stay at home mom for family. When our second arrived earlier this year, I went silent, too overwhelmed with two to blog on. Here’s my fresh start in a much more open environment telling the battles and joys of a stay at home mom. Cheers to Motherhood!